i weeded the garden... still have that cosmic question of why oh why does the grass grow with total abandon in my flower garden and not in my lawn? WHY. but i didn't do it all, there's other weekends to come, and hopefully less hot, and less humid. meghan, God bless her, helped me. what a good sport she is. took her for a manicure today. she deserves it for helping me pull weeds! what i need now though is a good swedish massage- my back is KILLING me!
also was thinking about depression, too. having suffered through it for years, even with medication, makes me wonder what gene or chromosome makes it come and go, or even just come and stay. and why some lucky women don't get post partum depression and some of us do. and why it seems to get worse with each child... and then can linger and linger. i have been off anti depressants for a while now, but that doesn't mean i don't fight it. and it doesn't mean it's any less real. i think i needed it (medication) for a long time, and pray i don't need it again. i used to say i could have/should have been the face of prozac. i never had the worst of the side effects that people complained of, or "allegedly" died from, from committing suicide. i did gain weight on it, but it was a small price to pay for keeping me from being an absolute nutcase. and there are some who would say i was anyway. but i truly believe i would have been waaaay worse. or not here. that's a blog for another day, though. it's enough that i've made it this far.
and now off to bed... good night, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite, as my mom used to say when she tucked us in.
